Reading out in school.

I remember how much I hated classes in School where teachers asked students to read out. Would always look to my watch with a panic attack wanting the time to go so that the bell rang and my turn to read would not come up.

Once I was picked up to read and i started with my disfluent way. Teacher said "If you are going to read like that, im going to send you out of the class". One of my mates enlightened her about me - "He always speaks like that" and then I was asked to sit down.

Once another teacher made me to read much longer in class telling others "Dont wonder why i made Shorn to read. I have a relative with a stutter who became a priest in a church. Shorn can come out of it".

In another instance, when I was asked to read and a mate updated the teacher about the stutter . she asked me "Why didnt you tell me before. I know ways to cure it".

In much younger upper primary times, when asked to recite a long answer to a fellow classmate, I remember she tried to look sideways as if not noticing me, but still listening to me - Maybe she wanted me to know that she isn't noticing my stutter or maybe she did not want to watch the spasms of blocking in my face.

All that time, i was trying to hide my stutter, trying to somehow fluent and say or read it like others and ended up stuttering as always. It was all obvious to my mates and people around me, even in child hood. 

Now  i say about my stutter rather than anyone else reminding about my stutter.

My heart goes out to all those children with stutter who maybe still continuing with a not full fledged school  life because of their stutter.

Looking forward to a better future where stuttering associations and support groups lessen the psychological burden on the "Child Who Stammers".